A New Beginning

Its April 3rd, 2009.... ten months before I am Mrs. Antea Joy Shelton.... WOW......*pause* That is so weird to type.... "Mrs. Antea Joy Shelton".... God is so amazing.

I wanted to write today to help me take in all this amazing stuff that's happening to me right now. Sometimes, my life is so crazy that I don't really get the chance to sit and breathe in the magnitude of everything.... Now is that moment for me. Typing/writing slows my brain down and helps me to soak in my life... enjoy my life...reflect on my life.

I thank the Lord Jesus for choosing me................. Choosing me to be a songwriter (because I CERTAINLY didn't pick this path for myself. Thanks Shani for saying that to me last time we were together! "Songwriting chose me, I didnt choose songwriting..."). I thank God for choosing me to find the man He created to be my husband and for choosing me to be on the career path HE chose.... *BIG SIGH* My God.... I could scream and cry and shout right now (but I'm in a classroom full of 7th graders so I won't... lol)! I am so so so amazed and grateful and in awe....

Craziest thing is I have not led the cleanest life. I have not been upright and blameless in my life. I have QUITE a private history... quite a past that only very few know about. Above and beyond ALL OF THE THINGS I'VE DONE WRONG and ALL THE TIMES I'VE FAILED, God STILL picked me. Dang. Thats so crazy. And to think, I just KNEW I had messed up my life and God was never going to bless me because of all the things I have done wrong.... but He proved His word to me "my sins thrown into the sea of forgetfulness..." YES!!!!

So, on another note (industry stuff now), Anesha and I are looking for a new publishing deal. Yea, we are not Darkchild anymore.... We've been in with Jennifer Lopez and Adrienne Bailon (from the Cheetah Girls) of late. We are looking forward to working with new Def Jam artist, Justin Bieber as well as Karina Pasian. I'm praying to God (agree with me please!) that within our new publishing agreement we will have good success, solid networking opportunities and MOST of all God's favor.... In this industry, I've learned, that you just cannot get a shot if you are not favored by God.... APLUS is favored.... and our God is bigger then their politics! :-)

I'm excited about the future! Marriage, a new publishing deal and a new beginning for Anesha and I. This is very good.